Its Hard & Always Be

(novels have great influence on me, here's a poem i'm dedicating to Tris (after she's gone) in Tobais's voice, Divergent Triology) 

I was never ready to leave your hand

Lose you in the hazy sand

Part away from those pearly eyes

And live the life after your demise

Last thing you said to me

"I never want to leave"

I know and believe

In those words left with me & my grief

I wish it was all a lie

I could take you back

From the cruel time

Each memory, each touch

I hold like a gem

In hope maybe

I could relive them.

You appeared fragile 

Still strong for sacrifice

I thought I was strong

Now I know, I was wrong.

Along with you, I lost my strength

And now this emptiness 

Resides inside like a swallowing well

I try to coat sadness with a smile

But lonely is what I'm all this while

And now I won't lie

Without you its hard

And always be !